reflection time :)
meanness: i don consider myself mean lah, just that sometime i feel naughty/lame/bored, then i will .. u know, trying to be abit sacarstic.
i hope that i don crack jokes that hurt anyone's feeling :D

laziness: recently, i have been feeling rather sleepy and tired. my current life only revolves around school/work/sleep/eat. sometime i dun feel like doing anything/slack even though im oweing loads of overdue homework. i need to find a way to pick myself up. i have 1.2 days to prepare to GP CT, 1 mth for the rest of the subjects(all H2). i need the motivation to do work! seriously, i think i wasted quite a lot of time on useless stuffs and unrelated business...

dear heavenly father,
i pray that the upcoming CT will be easy for me to handle, especially GP exam on this friday. i pray that the questions asked would be manageable or at least on the topic that im confident in. i pray that u can guide me through this difficult period of time and give me the strength to continue fighting. GOD, PLEASE BLESS ME THAT I WILL DO WELL(get a C grade) IN THE COMMON TEST. IN UR PRECIOUS HANDS, AMEN........

im a monster?? i finished 1 regular size pizza plus a bowl of greenbean soup...

today is my cooling point.. maybe i shld distract myself by studying or drawing. time is precious now, i only have 1.5yrs left to prepare for the A level. i need to learn to discipline myself physically and EMOTIONALLY. i need to focus, i must. this is the only way out i think, at least for now. my goal for the end of the year is to get all 'B and above grades. i must tries hard. i know it is easy to say it out(type it out) than putting my thoughts into action. but i will try. i want to get into the career attachment program -- advertisement company,basically media company la:)

maybe u haven realised what cooling point im refering to. . .haha. but it's ok. i dun really wanna share now. it's not the right time.

我喜欢读爱情小说，以为自己会更有经验，没想到自己还是爱情白痴。

love sometime is like a pitch of salt on the wound. i dunno why i have this interpretation. but, don u agree with me? sometimes, things don happen the way u wish to have.
it is hard to explain the feelings ---joy,sorror,jealousy,dismay,despair,irritation,happiness,bitterness.

i need to focus, really, on my works. but i keep thinking of him. day dreaming again i guess. my old habit:)
but i like it, bcuz u can predict what will happen and how u want things to happen in ur mind. HAHA.
i LOVE my own little wonderland :)

anw, im still optimist about my life right now. not giving up on everything/anything i hope to achieve. so here i go, embracing the future!
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even if i fell down on my way to my goal, even if i lose in the final match, i will always know that i still have my dear friends and family. when i look back, i know, they will be there, ALWAYS.
friendship, everlasting . . .

i don want to do a lot of homework. i like to study at my own pace.
ee.. why am i sleeping so late when there is school tmr.
i haven finish GP, CHEM, MATHS, GCS. wth.
if only there is no jc...
no sec school..
no school.. basically...
aiyah!! mom, can i go bak to ur womb???? LOL

oh! today is a fruitful day. i went out and have lunch with my classmates at Pizza Hut. really nice outing. we laugh a lot and eat a lot ... and for some ppl, drink a lot.
but it's nt the end. :D i get free (yes take note, it's FREE) regular size B&J ice cream from MOMO. haha. sweet, creamy and happy. of course i won forget abt photo taking :D cam whore-ing with my gd frens. hehe. crazy but fun!! seriously, i think some ppl(at least 1 ok) may find my life interesting and envy me. haha! GO AHEAD THEN, it's a natural feeling.. HAHA

i dun think anyone will read it, but if u happen to glance through, u are consider lucky! :D
actually, i dunno really wanted ppl to read it, it's all abt the inner feelings of mine. yes. so boring rite?? then just leave. :)

i like to stay alone when im feeling sad. i dun want to show the weaker side of me to anyone bcuz i wanna to be stronger. i wanted to help ppl, it's a nice feeling and a great sense of acheivement.
i like to cry alone and bury all my sadness deep deep inside my heart. i see no point of telling others when i can only depend on myself. very often, i used my left hand to warm up my right hand.

u cant blame me, if u went through the same experience that i had a few years ago, u will understand. it still casts a shadow in my heart which i really want to forget.
one of my fren, from other class(jc) said that she has experienced a lot in her life. but she never know or realise that she isn't alone. for god sake, i believe i encountered quite a fair bit of ups and downs too.

i dun like to complaint, becuase i think that it's useless to do that. ppl around me are nt going to change if i cry in front of them or complaint abt things that i dislike.

so shut up and stop telling that i act tough.

last thing in my mind, i cherish my frens and i will always be there for them when they need me. i dun like to see ppl feeling sad, i hate to see ppl getting bullied ... bcuz i was once bullied... awful..