im nt very sure abt the reason why im here at this late hr when i shld lie on my bed and get a rest.
i really really nt sure abt why im feeling restless and some what irritated.

how would guys be so superficial? dislike, i hate it.

i never realise how looks will affect the ppl's impression so greatly. when i realise that, i hate it. damn it, it's there all i will get after trying so hard to be nice to ppl and befriend with them whole-heartedly?? why, why is it that they are much more friendly to me when i took down my spec and straighten my hair. shallow, these ppl. i don want friends like it. disgust.

im still searching, searching for ppl that i used to dream ever since i were young ... the true-hearted ppl, the ppl that i wanted to cherish with all my life. where are they? im getting tired, disappoint, dispaired, sad, irritated.
and why is it so few? . . .

i miss my friends.. best friends..