maple related art.

everyone is saying how smart i am to go to a good sch, but i dun feel the same way.
wat is so good abt it? the fame? the name? or ur own pride?
that was once, my best fren told me, she will go to *** no matter how good she scored. well, her reason was 'she dont wat to be the worst in a good sch'. well, that time, i disagreed with her. now when i tink bak, i think it's true to most ppl, to me too.
study hard and go to a good sch, thats wat i did -- with score that just hit the cut off line (or mayb a little abit higher).
sometime, i ask myself, why do i try so hard? can i just relax abit and enjoy on wat i alr had? am i trying to get myself into another world where i dont belongs?
it's myserable to know wat my life is all abt in this four years. (i am nt saying it's nt fun, just that i believe i desire more joy)

grade is nt the only passport that opens the gate of 'better' future, i believe.

but, then again, i wonder, the will of fighting and trying our best to reach the goal is esteemable. we gain experience and strength as we fight along.

another world, so wat? if i cant change the world, i will change myself and adapt to the new environment.

keep up-valueing myself so to have the capability of fighting for wat i really want is most impt

last night, i had this weird but scary dream.
i was trying to rescue a poor girl from trapping inside a seal room, but was shocked to realise tt she is a demon. of course there were many many mass slaught scenes.. blah blah..
wonder why i have such a bloody violent dream, eee.